is this the place we used to love, is this the place that ive been dreaming of?

it was just another day
things to do, people to see
blue skies for miles, sun is shining
another day in paradise

i was filled with excitement, a feeling i was quite familiar with
for the thought of seeing you
was the only thing i was looking foward to

i took my time, because i knew you would be there
a smile came across my face when your house came into view
i was hopeful and happy, everything was going as planned
i got this feeling everytime, and i loved it

i start walking with a clear mind, thinking about my day and planning what to do next
step by step i was getting closer
my heart was beating, faster then before
i couldnt wait to be with you
i invite myself inside, as i always do

it was then that i heard the two words ive been anticipating, but never wanted to hear
my heart dropped and i couldnt think
my body went numb and i tried to speak
but nothing made sense

i walked to your room and took a deep breath
trying to collect myself and not fall to pieces like my heart had just done
i calmly gathered my things and looked around
my mind filled with thoughts and memories of the times we just had
it was then that i felt empty

a part of my heart was gone and the rest was broken
no warning, no phone call
you were gone

as i walked out of the door my sight became hazy
tears flooded my eyes and i could barely walk fast enough to leave before i broke down
i made my way to the beach
where i sat and i cried
so many questions and so many tears

i felt myself slipping, but i had to keep control
there was nothing i could do
i was so helpless and crushed
i did not understand, but i had to cope

this feeling has not yet gone away
so many tears have fallen from my eyes because of you
i refuse to let one more run down my face
im done crying, but the pain is still there
and it seems like it will never go away