it was just another day
things to do, people to see
blue skies for miles, sun is shining
another day in paradise
i was filled with excitement, a feeling i was quite familiar with
for the thought of seeing you
was the only thing i was looking foward to
i took my time, because i knew you would be there
a smile came across my face when your house came into view
i was hopeful and happy, everything was going as planned
i got this feeling everytime, and i loved it
i start walking with a clear mind, thinking about my day and planning what to do next
step by step i was getting closer
my heart was beating, faster then before
i couldnt wait to be with you
i invite myself inside, as i always do
it was then that i heard the two words ive been anticipating, but never wanted to hear
my heart dropped and i couldnt think
my body went numb and i tried to speak
but nothing made sense
i walked to your room and took a deep breath
trying to collect myself and not fall to pieces like my heart had just done
i calmly gathered my things and looked around
my mind filled with thoughts and memories of the times we just had
it was then that i felt empty
a part of my heart was gone and the rest was broken
no warning, no phone call
you were gone
as i walked out of the door my sight became hazy
tears flooded my eyes and i could barely walk fast enough to leave before i broke down
i made my way to the beach
where i sat and i cried
so many questions and so many tears
i felt myself slipping, but i had to keep control
there was nothing i could do
i was so helpless and crushed
i did not understand, but i had to cope
this feeling has not yet gone away
so many tears have fallen from my eyes because of you
i refuse to let one more run down my face
im done crying, but the pain is still there
and it seems like it will never go away
