sometimes you just have to walk away

its not quite over but i can can feel it coming
its almost gone....almost.

here i am, left to face it and wonder
its time to stop though, it really is
im tired of letting it take over my life
my every thought turns into hours which turns into days
i cant let this happen, or keep happening to be precise
but it has happened, and it will happen
i will stop thinking about it, about him, about them
and i cant wait for that day
I CANT WAIT

home is where i want to be but i guess im already there

what is this feeling?
i think ive felt it for too long and im ready to get rid of it...


but i cant
ive tried and tried but to no avail
how long this continue?

i hope not forever, actually i know not forever.
but theres always a chance

players only love you when theyre playing

im pretty content with life as of this moment
-i just finished cleaning my rediculously messy room
-booked a flight to the big island for mariahs graduation
-its friday, that alone is enough to be happy for
-jfreds party tonight and possible party at the volcom house too
-about to pick up an eighth from ian

great great great
im excited for life

i taught the weeping willow how to cry

time to think, time to wonder
im left with only the thoughts of what it could have been
i think all the time, almost too much
about what could have happened
now i sit here, out of touch

with me, with you, with life
forcing me into a new beginning, a new start
though i dont want to
you had my heart

better or worse i cannot say
things are different
i have yet to see what is become of this
its you
your touch, your smile, your eyes, i miss

time will go on and so will life
im try to stop myself
from the old, new, good and bad
while i just think and hold on
to the memories we once had

the future is uncertain for me and you
chasing the dream, the life
finishing the past and never looking back
making up for time lost
and the courage i lack

its all the same
it always is, it always will be
i look to the sky and keep my head straight
because in the end
you cant stop fate